Sunday, April 27, 2008
"I Try To Remember"
Life goes by so quickly; the seconds turn to minutes, the minutes turn to hours, the hours turn to days. And it's always the good times that go by the quickest. Sometimes I just want to stop time to just let me live in that moment. Not worrying about whatever may lay ahead, not obsessing over the mistakes I made in the past, but just savoring the moment. Just being in the prescence of my friends is like the sweet sugary syrup slipping down your sore throat; it makes you laugh again, it makes you forget about all the bad things in your life. Right now we only acknowledge the things that we should be cherishing. We should be cherishing the little time we have left, not just taking it for granted. Every birthday party i've missed might be the last one i could've gone to. Every lunch time just sitting out on the grass, enjoying the feeling of the sun on my face, is one of only thirty two times left. Every time i close my eyes and wish for my surroundings to disappear is another time i'm passing over the chance to take advantage of the time i have left. Of course, i'm not wishing for life to be filled with ponies and rainbows. There should be some hard times thrown into the mix so that we can learn from our experiences. Now i realize that whenever i'm looking forward to something and saying, i can't wait till the weekend, i'm chipping away at the tiny woodblock that represents my life left back here.Sometimes we have to make really hard decisions. We're faced with the impossible, and we ponder the consequences. And sometimes, we're leaning towards the easier decision, but the harder one is the one we know will best benefit us. I've rejected it before, only willing to hold onto my friends and the only life which exists to me. But when i did decide to walk down the road so overgrown with vegetation that i cant even see what's ahead, i know i did the right thing. Sure, occasionally i can see the other road across the river, populated with people having fun, a well-travelled trail beaten into the ground. And then i look at the road i'm travelling on. I strain my eyes to see as far as i can, i look over my shoulder, closing my eyes and wishing that there would be someone following me or guiding my way. But then i open them, and i'm faced with reality, i'm the only one on this path, and there's no one to guide me except for occasional signs along the way. I walk on. I can feel things flitting around me; memories tugging at me to turn around and go back, the faces of friends floating up ahead, the encouragements of them the only guide. But i've gone to far and there's no turning back now.
We all know that no matter how hard we pray, how hard we hope, there will always be some bitterness mixed into the cocktail that is life. Nature is a cycle. The sweet, flowery scents of spring give way to the sun-filled days of summer, which in turn, are painted over with a warm palette of autumn colors. The colors are washed away, leaving only the white canvas that is winter, which will soon blossom into spring again. However, life isn’t a cycle. Life only goes around once. We all have to wake up sometime to the reality that nothing is really permanent and everything fades away in time. We're all born optimists, yet some people chose to look upon the negative aspects of life. We all want so badly to believe that the gold in everything can come back, even after it is lost. Under careful consideration, it is discovered that the gold doesn't reoccur with the seasons as we had once hoped. Who wouldn’t want to cling to gold? But it is just too hard in a world like this. We should live life to the fullest; everything good has to end, so we should make the most of what we have when we have it. We should try to focus on the beauty in life, discover new things, and never get bored with the small and great miracles of life. We should always hold on to what we cherish and never let them slip away. But they do.
9 stars were shining bright even without the moon
