Saturday, April 26, 2008

"No One Said Life Would Be Easy But No One Said It Would Be This Hard"

Life is not easy. And it never will be. But when i've thought about it, 14 years of my life has already gone by. 5110 days, 306600 hours. I always feel that when i'm in class i'm always waiting for it to end, i'm always staring at the clock, willing it to change to the next digit. But i guess, once every class goes by, that's another hour off my life. And yet, i've never said to myself: life is easy. It's always been: life is hard, or life is cruel. I've always tried to be an optimist, but sometimes life throws something at you, and it doesn't just leave a scratch on the surface, it cuts deep within.

As adolescents, life's challenges seem to be at it's utmost hardest. Yet have we ever just paused and thought about our future? Sure, I've thought about my past, my present, my future, and i've compared them. The past seems to be a paper cut, while the present is like trying to scratch a diamond. If we think life is hard now, our future's going to be insane. Right now, we take everything life throws at us, gritting our teeth and with some complaints. And i guess, maybe once we get to adulthood we'll be prepared for it, and it wont seem as hard. When i think about it right now, all i can see is blankness. I have no idea where i'll be and what i'll be doing. It's kind of scary eh? Life seems to be a game, we have to play by the rules, we get consequences when we break them, and we cant predict what might happen next. But this kind of game is neverending.

Independence and the freedom of choice have long been valued by people around the world. Growing up, we have all been taught to make the right decisions, and to make them independently. But while going through our childhood, we discover that making the right decisions isn’t really as easy as it seems, and sometimes the hardest decision is the right decision. We get influenced by those around us; family, friends, teachers, celebrities. Since we could understand concepts, we have been told to stand up for what we think is right. But after we make these decisions, we always think back to the past. The past shapes our present and our future, and we think: if we had chosen the other path what would have happened? We live our lives with regrets. Choice is unavoidable and we will never know what our choice will mean until we have lived it out. We often find ourselves standing at a fork, looking down both paths and weighing the consequences. No matter which path we take, whether it is the hardest or the easiest one, we will always look over our shoulder and think whether the choice we had made was the correct one and how it had influenced our life.
There was this girl who said to me: live life with no regrets. Of course, she was just referring to her belly piercing. But i guess she's kind of right. We all SHOULD live our lives with no regrets, yet how easy is that?
[Kathy]

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