Monday, April 28, 2008
"Walking The Plank On A Sinking Ship"
This was inspired off of one of my friends who just went through a hard breakup with her boyfriend.
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The stars were out, lighting up the pitch-dark sky. The rain was coming down in sheets, drenching the unfortunate who had forgotten umbrellas, creating puddles so that navigating the roads became an obstacle course. She looked around her; everyone was in cars, in the buildings, or holding umbrellas. A group of friends were laughing and singing to the radio in their car, the windows steamed up. They're probably all toasty in there, enjoying the company. The lights in the nearby building were still on, despite the late hour, revealing a young girl hard at work, her desk strewn with papers, her coffee cup tipped precariously at the edge. Will that become me? A couple was standing under an umbrella, oblivious of their surroundings, engrossed in each other.
She hurried on, choking back a sob, fighting back tears until she reached the small road that would lead to her house. A quick look into the darkness and over her shoulder revealed that she was alone. Then she let loose; she lost all control and her emotions took over her. She threw away her umbrella, letting the rain fall on her upturned face, accepting its cold as punishment for her stupidity. She bit her lip, the sobs overwhelming her, the tears pouring steadily down her cheeks. How could i have been so stupid? To trust him like that? To believe that there was actually a meaning behind his words? Her hair, preciously curled that morning, was starting to fall back into place. Her makeup was running, mascara and eyeliner creating black tracks. Her favorite top was being drenched so it stuck to her skin like saran wrap.
All along they had been right. I had ignored the people i was supposed to be listening to and believed the person who never put faith behind his words. She fell to her knees, no longer caring; caring about the mud, caring about him. Suddenly, she stood up, and started running. The rain pounded relentlessly, yet she pushed on, shaking the water out of her eyes, her tears mingling with the rain. She had no sense of direction anymore, just followed where her feet carried her. She followed the path they had walked so many times before, up and up, pushing herself harder and harder. Her body was screaming at her to stop, her breath was coming in short gasps, and she could barely see through her swollen eyes. Yet she pressed on. She emerged from the trees into the clearing overlooking the city, somewhere they had sat so many times, not caring about anything in the world, just holding each other and enjoying the scenery. The words of her friends ran through her head. Never fall for 'i'll love you forever', he's not worth you. The memories that she had tried to shove into the deepest recceses came flooding back as she took in her surroundings. No longer were the tears falling. Sadness was replaced with anger, love was replaced with fury. They're right. I should've listened. Words are just words, they don't mean anything. I'll show him i'm better off without him. I'll make him beg to see me, make him miss me, make him love me, make him suffer. He's not the one. I'm better off without him.
She walked to the edge of the clearing, to the place where the railing met the edge. She took in the city lights, blinking at her innocently. She breathed in the scent of pine needles, its fresh smell enhanced by the rain. She looked around her, remember the sweet memories she had experienced in that very spot with him. Remembering the memories one last time before she locked them in the back of her mind, forgetting him forever. She turned around and slowly made the trek down the trail.
Now i know what to do. I won't make mistakes like i did to this one. I know what i've done wrong and it'll teach me to be less like that. This is what i've learned. For the past months of being with you.
[Kathy]
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The stars were out, lighting up the pitch-dark sky. The rain was coming down in sheets, drenching the unfortunate who had forgotten umbrellas, creating puddles so that navigating the roads became an obstacle course. She looked around her; everyone was in cars, in the buildings, or holding umbrellas. A group of friends were laughing and singing to the radio in their car, the windows steamed up. They're probably all toasty in there, enjoying the company. The lights in the nearby building were still on, despite the late hour, revealing a young girl hard at work, her desk strewn with papers, her coffee cup tipped precariously at the edge. Will that become me? A couple was standing under an umbrella, oblivious of their surroundings, engrossed in each other.
She hurried on, choking back a sob, fighting back tears until she reached the small road that would lead to her house. A quick look into the darkness and over her shoulder revealed that she was alone. Then she let loose; she lost all control and her emotions took over her. She threw away her umbrella, letting the rain fall on her upturned face, accepting its cold as punishment for her stupidity. She bit her lip, the sobs overwhelming her, the tears pouring steadily down her cheeks. How could i have been so stupid? To trust him like that? To believe that there was actually a meaning behind his words? Her hair, preciously curled that morning, was starting to fall back into place. Her makeup was running, mascara and eyeliner creating black tracks. Her favorite top was being drenched so it stuck to her skin like saran wrap.
All along they had been right. I had ignored the people i was supposed to be listening to and believed the person who never put faith behind his words. She fell to her knees, no longer caring; caring about the mud, caring about him. Suddenly, she stood up, and started running. The rain pounded relentlessly, yet she pushed on, shaking the water out of her eyes, her tears mingling with the rain. She had no sense of direction anymore, just followed where her feet carried her. She followed the path they had walked so many times before, up and up, pushing herself harder and harder. Her body was screaming at her to stop, her breath was coming in short gasps, and she could barely see through her swollen eyes. Yet she pressed on. She emerged from the trees into the clearing overlooking the city, somewhere they had sat so many times, not caring about anything in the world, just holding each other and enjoying the scenery. The words of her friends ran through her head. Never fall for 'i'll love you forever', he's not worth you. The memories that she had tried to shove into the deepest recceses came flooding back as she took in her surroundings. No longer were the tears falling. Sadness was replaced with anger, love was replaced with fury. They're right. I should've listened. Words are just words, they don't mean anything. I'll show him i'm better off without him. I'll make him beg to see me, make him miss me, make him love me, make him suffer. He's not the one. I'm better off without him.
She walked to the edge of the clearing, to the place where the railing met the edge. She took in the city lights, blinking at her innocently. She breathed in the scent of pine needles, its fresh smell enhanced by the rain. She looked around her, remember the sweet memories she had experienced in that very spot with him. Remembering the memories one last time before she locked them in the back of her mind, forgetting him forever. She turned around and slowly made the trek down the trail.
Now i know what to do. I won't make mistakes like i did to this one. I know what i've done wrong and it'll teach me to be less like that. This is what i've learned. For the past months of being with you.
[Kathy]
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